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Anxiety Hangover

March 22, 2015

Life generally is pretty damn good at the moment. So much so that I have a partial blog post running through my brain that I was planning on writing this week, if I could find the time.

Then Friday came and with it a dentist appointment (well hygienist). Booked for 2.30 in the afternoon after a couple of rescheduling issues. First thing in the morning I woke feeling unsettled. I took the kids to school, walked home, did some work. All the time I was feeling worse and worse. By lunchtime I was freaking out. My 2pm I was in a complete state. I made it there for my appointment but once I was in the chair I turned into a blubbering wreck. She was new to me and lovely but I fell apart. She took some measurements and explained that she needed to do a *something technical sounding horrific* clean on my teeth and the best thing to do would be to numb my mouth.

I just fell apart completely at that point. I just wasn’t mentally prepared for injections. And so I apologised a million times, paid and left. I have agreed to come back in 2 weeks to have it done. It will take two appointments. I have booked them for the earliest possible.

There were things that made it worse. Not knowing what would happen when I went, the appointment being so late in the afternoon. Things that I can manage for next time I go.

Oh but the anxiety. My whole body was shaking. I felt sick. I started breathing funny, and that makes me automatically blow out on my out breath which makes me look strange. I start to hum or sing to myself. It is horrible. It is so long since I have been in that state.

It occurs to me that going to the dentist has got worse again lately and I realised it is because I no longer take anti depressants. I guess that they were managing my anxiety. Yes I felt wound up when I went but nothing like I have been in the past and how I was on Friday.

Once I left I had a good cry (in the middle of town thank goodness for sunglasses) and then went to a friend’s leaving party and drank a bit too much for 5pm on a Friday. And since then I feel dreadful, the worst of the anxiety has gone but I am left with a sort of hangover. I can’t settle properly. I am on edge and extremely short tempered. Small things make me feel anxious again (going bowling this morning – ridiculous).

I had to write this down, to record it. I am hoping that by getting it out now I can relax, go to bed early and wake up tomorrow ready to take on the world again.

magnolia

Our Magnolia started flowering today. Not very relevant but a reminder perhaps that life isn’t all bad.

 

I was contacted my the Hypnotherapy Directory asking me if I would consider adding a link to their website from this post. I have agreed to do so – it looks like an interesting site with information and lists of Hypnotherapy specialists in your area. I have not used the website myself and I am not recommending them in any way, but if you feel like I do sometimes it may well be worth a look.

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8 Comments

  • Reply sez March 22, 2015 at 8:06 pm

    Wish I could give you a big hug! If I was closer I’d come and hold your hand.

    • Reply Kelly March 28, 2015 at 8:40 am

      You are a love as always x You can give me a hug next week.

  • Reply Helloitsgemma March 22, 2015 at 8:22 pm

    Really hope tomorrow is better for you, writing it down taking it out of your head and putting it elsewhere – hope it helps.

    • Reply Kelly March 28, 2015 at 8:40 am

      Thanks Gemma, it took a while but I was feeling better by Tuesday. Just got to try and stay calm for my appointment next week.

  • Reply Mwa March 25, 2015 at 2:51 pm

    That sounds horrible. I’m always crying at the dentist’s as well. I have found some kind of solution. I now go to a children’s dentist. She is very friendly and soft. Also, I take a plant extract with some valerian and hops in it. It calms me down. And sometimes a paracetamol, too. Whatever works, eh? Good luck next time.

    • Reply Kelly March 28, 2015 at 8:39 am

      Great suggestions. My problem is that my dentist keeps changing so asking who I will be seeing before each appointment will help. Someone else mentioned a squishy ball so I might take something to hold next time.

  • Reply Elizabeth Rebecca March 27, 2015 at 9:00 pm

    I know exactly how you feel: I’ve been through the anxiety cry, the anxiety and then the post anxiety migraine too many times.

    Lizzie Dripping

    • Reply Kelly March 28, 2015 at 8:38 am

      It is just so exhausting is’nt it?

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