Changes

December 5, 2006

I always have plenty to say in ‘real life’, really I never shut up, but I am having the same problem as I did this time last year, when I know that I have to post every day I find it really difficult to find something to say.

I just feel like my posts are all yada yada, went to work, came home, cooked dinner (battered haddock, garlic and rosemary homemade chips and Heinz beans) watched tv, went to sleep.

Well actually I think that is the first time that have written that but I do not feel like I have anything interesting to say at the moment.

I read Mouldy’s post earlier and it has upset me a little. I understand what he means it just makes me sad that he seems to be having a rough time at work at the moment and I worry that if he leaves then we will not keep in touch as much as we do now. Plus sometimes I get a little jealous of him and his ‘partner in crime’, they get on so well. Silly really. I think I just feel a bit weird about everything at the moment. The group of friends that have been constant in my life for the last few years is splitting up and we are all moving on. Girlie number 1 is off to London (but she is staying at ours at the moment which is great!) Girlie number 2 is shacked up with her man and happy. I have moved a little way away but it means that it is harder to see people for a quick drink and a catch up. I try to get over and see Security Guard every couple of weeks but he doesn’t drive so I am the one that has to make the effort.

I just feel that it is such a time of great change. I am so happy living with Paul, every day I thank my lucky stars that he loves me back and loves my own certain brand of crazy. I feel unsettled, everything is new and different. In the New Year we are going to start looking for a house of our own to buy and hopefully by next summer we will have a new place to live, and I can make my home and see how things turn out.

Ah, there we go, I did have something to say after all.

2 Comments

  • Reply Laughing Muse December 5, 2006 at 11:20 pm

    A point! You did have one!!

    Never, ever worry about having nothing to say. When you get together with your friends, do you always only talk about the great big momentus stuff? Probably not – you talk about big stuff, and little stuff, and the everyday yada yada ya.

    That’s life. Rejoice in it. Even in the really weird stuff 😀

  • Reply Adz December 6, 2006 at 12:01 pm

    I’m in exactly the same situation. My group of friends have disbanded and moved on a fair bit over the last year. We still keep in touch and see each other, it just isn’t the same as seeing them every weekend and being part of the “gang.”

    It’s sad, but it is life. You have Paul who makes you very happy, that is clear to see. You make friends all through your life, but the best ones you keep in touch with, and still see. OK, it might not be as often, but it is still exactly the same when you do meet up, like all those months that have passed haven’t really happened.

    Phones and emails are wonderful things, I wouldn’t have half the friends I have if they didn’t exist!

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