I am quite upset right now because all plans to go to Cornwall are on hold for 24 hours while the stupid weather does its stupid whatever. I am all packed and we are ready to go and now I just have to sit here and wait another day. For crying out loud will I get a bloody break this week?
I just want to say that I know I am acting like a petulant child, I know that driving with a 3 month old and two slightly sleep deprived parents at night in this weather would just be stupid, I know that we have made the right decision.
BUT I cannot tell you how long I have been planning this trip, how much I want to be there already. How much I miss my mum and what it means for me to get down there and show off my little boy. This week has been horrible, really bloody horrible and I needed cheering up. We were meant to be taking my mum to Fifteen tomorrow for lunch, we had it all arranged. There were surprises and I was so excited.
The worst part is that the sun is shining right now. Makes it all feel so futile.
I had started up the computer to write a quick post about going away and saying that I would be back online as soon as I can convince my step dad to give me the password to his wifi. Instead I had a 5 minute conversation with my mum where she cried and begged me not to come just yet. Nothing like a bit of emotional blackmail. I was planning on just starting out and if it all got too much we would stop in a travel lodge but we will just wait and go tomorrow afternoon instead. This post is boring and whiney, sorry. Will get up and dust myself off in a couple hours but for now I am just going to feel sorry for myself and eat cake.
Friday 13th, unlucky for me.
Update: I have pulled myself together and now I am in my PJ’s and I have eaten oat and raisin cookies and had 2 fried eggs with my dinner I feel much happier. I know we made the right decision. I think writing this earlier helped me to perk up a bit.
We will try again tomorrow.