Here and Now

September 19, 2015


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Can you see the little bunny ears?

Well it seems that I have quite the case of bloggers block. I don’t know what it is, how I have been feeling, the break over the summer, or just this all consuming feeling that I just don’t know why I do it anymore. I think the thing is that I read so many interesting blogs and follow so many interesting and cool people and when I stand there next to them I don’t feel like I should be there. I don’t like this feeling, I have never had it before and I just don’t know what to do with it. I tell myself that blogging is harder these days, that commenting is almost dead but then I see other blogs that have loads of comments and I think, oh, maybe it is just me. How do I know if anyone is actually reading? How do I know that anyone cares if there is a new post here or not. I know people engage on social media more these days but I am bit rubbish about sharing posts on Twitter and Instagram. Perhaps I should work on that. One of my favourite blogs Rusty Rambles has switched off comments all together. It is something I have been thinking about for sure. I do know that I have been blogging 10 years and I got so many more comments when I started than I do now.

I guess it mostly comes back to why I blog. Am I blogging for me or for other people? I say it is a record of our life but will I ever get round to going back and reading it? Perhaps I should pay attention to my own tagline – Blog like no one is reading. That doesn’t mean that I don’t want people to read it always meant that I wanted to write whatever I was feeling at the time without worrying about what anyone coming across these words would think. It  meant being open and honest so that others that might find parenting hard, or experience depression as I do might feel less alone.

Already as my fingers tap out a slightly forgotten but oh so familiar rhythm on the keyboard I am starting to feel it work its magic on me. Little realisations are coming to the fore as the words hit the page. Yes having readers is a lovely thing, but ultimately in the past I have always blogged just for me. I love to share what I am doing, and I really miss actually writing on here. There are some things that hold me back. Like the fact the my new blog template needs an image with every post or the home page looks weird. Such a little thing but sometimes these words don’t have an obvious image. Maybe I will switch that off for a bit or maybe I will create a holding image of some sort.

Yesterday when baking I had an idea for a new blog series, one that I would really like to try. But it will only work if other people will join in. Not just bloggers, anyone. I just have to tell myself that I can do it, and get bloody well on with it.

Today though I would really like to do a quick experiment. If you have read this post and you are on Twitter could you please click on the bird below and send the tweet that pops up. I promise that it would make my day.

Tweet: I came, I saw, I read @Kellyfairy's blog post. http://ctt.ec/Ea2CZ+

And please, if you have any ideas or suggestions tweet me, IG me, or leave a good old fashioned comment.

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  • Reply Archie The Wonder Dog September 19, 2015 at 7:32 am

    I love the photo in this post and yes, can see the bunny ears! At least, I think that what I can see are bunny ears! Blog reading/commenting has definitely changed but if you like blogging, for whatever reason, then carry on doing it. I blog sporadically, too, and sometimes feel as though I ‘should’ blog more often; then I realise that the only person making up the rule about how often I should blog is me, so I usually ignore them! Have a good weekend x

    • Reply Kelly September 23, 2015 at 11:38 am

      Good plan ignoring that voice in our heads!

  • Reply (Mostly) Yummy Mummy September 19, 2015 at 1:18 pm

    I’ve only been blogging for something like five years and can see how much it has changed in just that time so I can’t imagine what a different place it was ten years ago. I have had similar wobbles and I think a lot of us do. For whatever reason though, I do come back from breaks and keep on blogging away in my own little bubble. I think that breaks can be a good thing and actually, one of the best things about blogging as a hobby is that it is always there waiting for you, to be picked up whenever it feels right again. P.S. The first thing I saw was the bunny ears! x

    • Reply Kelly September 23, 2015 at 11:39 am

      You are so right, and actually I love the rise and fall of my blog, it is like a representation o0f what life had in store for me at that point. xxx

  • Reply helloitsgemma September 21, 2015 at 11:12 am

    THIS. THIS and THIS!
    I find it increasingly hard to find my place and wonder why I’m doing it. Particularly, this year, blogging has accelerated at such a place. I often feel like the blogger that time forgot. I think you should give your idea a try….. go on!

    • Reply Kelly September 23, 2015 at 11:40 am

      blogger that time forgot – I love that. I think maybe I need a mission statement – or a sentence about what I actually want this blog to be. Then I can measure what I am doing against that rather than floundering around in the darkness!

  • Reply Ellie September 21, 2015 at 10:32 pm

    Well hello!
    I’m happy to be reading your blog, so maybe you should keep writing it…..
    But only if you enjoy it!
    x x x

    • Reply Kelly September 23, 2015 at 11:41 am

      You are very right and yes, once I find the time to sit down I love it. So really what am I worrying about?

  • Reply Lucy September 21, 2015 at 11:18 pm

    I read this blog after someone tweeted the ‘I came, I saw, I read.’ I have exactly the same doubts about blogging. It’s so easy to fall into the trap of comparison and of course, there will always be blogs that are funnier, cooler, prettier, etc, etc. It feels like a popularity contest. I think you’re right to remember why you started it in the first place. And I’d love to hear about your idea. xx

    • Reply Kelly September 28, 2015 at 2:24 pm

      Thanks for reading and commenting Lucy, yes I agree it is a trap we all fall into at some time or other. Watch this space for my idea…

  • Reply Alcea Rosea September 24, 2015 at 8:13 am

    I read your blog posts but I’m not good at commenting and I’m a ,lousy blogger. I don’t Twitter or Facebook , I already spend too much much time on the computer.

    • Reply Kelly September 28, 2015 at 2:25 pm

      It can be hard to find a balance can’t it? Between real and online life.

  • Reply D October 11, 2015 at 1:43 am

    I read your blog as a pleasant ‘catchup’ with someone who crafts, parents, and wrangles with depression and self-doubt, so keep on blogging! I don’t mind pauses in blogs, as I tend to check back in and read what I”ve missed when I have chance, and I know life wanders.

    • Reply Kelly October 12, 2015 at 12:35 pm

      Thank you for your comment that is really lovely to hear x

  • Reply Kara November 2, 2015 at 6:09 am

    I wrote a similar not so well written post a month or so ago.
    I feel my blog is lost now is a sea of so much success and although I do blog for me we all want to be loved.
    I have been blogging 9 years come Jan and I think that is the problem. Like you I remember when people commented and read but I guess there wasn’t loads of us then.
    Off to look into your blog more. Excellent post and I say do your linky what do you have to loose. Tweet me when you do @Karaakaicc

    • Reply Kelly November 2, 2015 at 8:23 am

      Ah thank you for your comment. Things change, they cannot stay the same and I guess I am wondering if the blog will survive now everything in my life is different. I really hope that it does, but if it doesn’t then it is still a wonderful thing I will always have.

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