Well it seems that I have quite the case of bloggers block. I don’t know what it is, how I have been feeling, the break over the summer, or just this all consuming feeling that I just don’t know why I do it anymore. I think the thing is that I read so many interesting blogs and follow so many interesting and cool people and when I stand there next to them I don’t feel like I should be there. I don’t like this feeling, I have never had it before and I just don’t know what to do with it. I tell myself that blogging is harder these days, that commenting is almost dead but then I see other blogs that have loads of comments and I think, oh, maybe it is just me. How do I know if anyone is actually reading? How do I know that anyone cares if there is a new post here or not. I know people engage on social media more these days but I am bit rubbish about sharing posts on Twitter and Instagram. Perhaps I should work on that. One of my favourite blogs Rusty Rambles has switched off comments all together. It is something I have been thinking about for sure. I do know that I have been blogging 10 years and I got so many more comments when I started than I do now.
I guess it mostly comes back to why I blog. Am I blogging for me or for other people? I say it is a record of our life but will I ever get round to going back and reading it? Perhaps I should pay attention to my own tagline – Blog like no one is reading. That doesn’t mean that I don’t want people to read it always meant that I wanted to write whatever I was feeling at the time without worrying about what anyone coming across these words would think. It meant being open and honest so that others that might find parenting hard, or experience depression as I do might feel less alone.
Already as my fingers tap out a slightly forgotten but oh so familiar rhythm on the keyboard I am starting to feel it work its magic on me. Little realisations are coming to the fore as the words hit the page. Yes having readers is a lovely thing, but ultimately in the past I have always blogged just for me. I love to share what I am doing, and I really miss actually writing on here. There are some things that hold me back. Like the fact the my new blog template needs an image with every post or the home page looks weird. Such a little thing but sometimes these words don’t have an obvious image. Maybe I will switch that off for a bit or maybe I will create a holding image of some sort.
Yesterday when baking I had an idea for a new blog series, one that I would really like to try. But it will only work if other people will join in. Not just bloggers, anyone. I just have to tell myself that I can do it, and get bloody well on with it.
Today though I would really like to do a quick experiment. If you have read this post and you are on Twitter could you please click on the bird below and send the tweet that pops up. I promise that it would make my day.
And please, if you have any ideas or suggestions tweet me, IG me, or leave a good old fashioned comment.