I have been blogging for over 4 years, and not that many people know about it. When I started I was completely anonymous, under the name of Dancinfairy. I blogged about my life and my sometimes disastrous love life. I blogged at work and about work and because it was all anonymous it didn’t really matter.
Then slowly I let my guard down with a couple people and then a couple more. Then I got completely drunk one night and told all of my friends. Then, even though they probably immediately forgot I didn’t feel comfortable about the whole thing. So I started a new blog (this one, orginally called ‘A place to hide’) I just checked and my first real post after moving across from my old blog was 22nd July 2007. Wow, over 2 years ago.
Slowly over time I have dropped the anonymity and now I am just Kelly. You know what I look like, what my husband looks like and my son’s name and incredibly cute face!! You know where I come from and roughly where I live.
But one thing remains. The ‘real’ people in my life don’t know about this blog. They do know about this one, but that was just put together when Mr C and I moved into this house and I wanted to keep my family up to date on what we had achieved. They do not know that I have a personal blog where I write about, well everything! Everyone I write about on here has a nickname, but they do not know that they are being written about.
However, now I am on maternity leave blogging has become more than something that I do occasionally. It is part of my every day life. I am posting or thinking of posting, or making things and taking pictures to post on Monday. And, to be honest, I love it. Being at home all the time is a bit if a shock to the system when I have been a 9-5 office girl for so long. I don’t miss that at all, but it is nice to have something that is mine.
My problem has come from the fact that because I am blogging more things have changed. I have made friends that I have met in real life and my mum asked me how I got to know them (a vague ‘on the internet’ made her a little worried. It’s okay mum, I am not a child!). I have won prizes and people want to know how I entered them (blogging, all blogging). I am being contacted regarding reviews more and more often and although I turn down anything that is not relevant to me I have received some things, and some others are in the pipeline. Now, I could say that we bought all of these items but it kinda looks like we are being frivolous with our money and we are not.
So I am wondering if perhaps it is time I came out of the blogging closet. I am worried about their reactions to it though. I have lived away from my family for the last 9 years. We are still close and they know me well but here, in my little place of the internet I am truly myself. I do not censor myself. I do not hold back. I write about my triumphs and my bad days. I write about the struggles I have being a first time mum. I boast about my gorgeous baby. What would they think about the fact that I post pictures of my little family. That Piran is known by a little part of the internet. I really am in two minds what to do. I don’t want to be judged. Am I being too hard on them? Or paranoid?
So, does your family read your blog? Any advice? I would love to know what everyone else does.
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