The one where I don’t feel any better in the morning.

April 26, 2006

Ha. I just re-read my post from last night.

He did go to bed at 9.30 and began snorning about 30 seconds afterwards.

I stayed up and read my book but that was cool because I got a little ‘me time’.

Went to bed at 11 and he was fast asleep in the middle of the bed, spread right out so I couldn’t get it.

I shook him, I called his name, I shook him harder.

Not a sausage.

Tried shouting, tried something else, tried more shaking.


Shook him really hard, hoping that I would get some momentum up and then I would be able to roll him to his side of the bed.

All of a sudden. *Giggle*

I couldn’t believe my ears. He was awake and laughing at me.

So I went for the full tickle and pretty soon he was giggling away like a schoolgirl with her first crush.

But he wouldn’t talk to me at all.

Just giggled.

For about 5 minutes.

Then he moved.

When he woke up this morning he didn’t remember any of it. Sleep giggling like a girl.

So that was funny.

However I have woken up today and I feel terrible. All my glands are so swollen I feel like a punchbag. It even hurts to put my right arm by side because of the gland in my armpit.

I should be happy. I had my stitches out yesterday and I got the all clear on my mole. So no cancer. Lucky me.

But I feel so low and crappy and like I want to cry or scream or just hide.

Everything annoys me today – even the sound of the extractor fan in the bathroom had me so much on edge I switched it off and got dry in the dark.

I want to shout, I want to yell, I want to smash things, I want to sob my bloody heart out.

I will drink tea instead and try and cope with a days work :o(


  • Reply running42k April 26, 2006 at 11:52 am

    Glad about the mole/no cancer thing. The sleep giggling, hmmm. That is weird.

  • Reply Léonie April 26, 2006 at 12:31 pm


    Is that how you feel? Snarly?

    Like you want to give everyone you meet chinese burns?

    Drink tea. Perhaps some crisps or a nice pasty? Find something you like and take comfort in it.

    Hang in there… I know how you feel.

  • Reply Mouldy April 26, 2006 at 12:56 pm

    Have faith and it will all improve!

    Bless you and your lovely sweet, Arsenal-hating boyfriend!

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