My eighth post for reverb10.
Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different – you’ll find they’re what make you beautiful.
This prompt is making my brain hurt.
I just don’t know what to say.
I don’t think that I am different.
I don’t think that I ever wanted to be different.
I think I have probably spent my life trying to make sure I am not different.
I have spent my life trying to blend in.
Because that isn’t as scary as standing out, being an individual.
I don’t want people to notice me.
I like to be quiet and alone.
There is less chance of making a fool of myself that way.
Of being stupid, offending someone, making myself feel small and frightened.
But, thinking about it I am different today than I was a year ago, two years ago, five years ago.
I am less selfish.
I am more understanding.
I am more patient.
I think of others before myself.
I have better empathy.
I have developed a conscience.
I have learned what it means to compromise.
I am braver.
I am stronger.
I believe in myself more.
I think I am worthy.
So perhaps what makes me beautiful is not what makes me different from other people, but the differences between the person I was then and the person I am now. I know I am a nicer person. I know I am a better person. That spirit is what makes me beautiful, at least to myself.
I found this prompt really hard to write about so I just started and let it come. It has turned out quite different from what I expected but I think I like it.