I mentioned yesterday that it was Eeshee’s birthday celebration last night. I was feeling really ill, and very tired so I decided that I would skip going for the meal and just show my face for a couple of hours before running home at 11pm when my parents offered to give me a lift.
Unfortunately for me (I am totally blaming this on them) they decided that they wouldn’t be going home until 12 and between 11 and 12 I tipped the scales between tired and pissed and got blagged into going over to a friend’s house to drink more and to be sociable!
I finally got home at 4.30am this morning – soaked to the skin after having to walk a mile and a half home in the pissing rain (this is really going to help that cough of mine!).
However I just cannot stop smiling today! It all ties in with all the stuff that I said before – I really hate going to house parties as I feel totally uncomfortable and get all freaked out and then I would go home. But last night was fantastic. I guess it was the people and the fact that there weren’t huge amounts of us there and I had two of mt best friends with me.
What is weird is that I think I am starting to feel like I am really changing at the moment. I feel stronger and not as scared by new people and new things. Stuff that used to petrify me is now exciting. I hope this feeling lasts.
In other news I have deleted Sam’s phone number and the messages from him that I had saved so I am now no longer able to text or ring him whether I am drunk or sober. I need to start acting my age! If he contacts me then I will decide what to do but from now on it will not be me chasing him like a sad little puppy with no self respect.
Wow this post is actually a decent length. I can’t wait to get back to my own computer. Oh well only a day with Dippy Mum, a cocktail party, a day full of hangover and another indian head massage followed by a 300 mile drive to go!!!