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November 1, 2015

Leaves

Everything is a bit much at the moment.
I am tired.
Life seems off balance.
Mr C took half term off to spend with us and was ill the whole time.
Now he goes back to work tomorrow.
Now I am ill.
Tomorrow is an inset day.
Half term ended up being a bit rubbish really.
The children are still tired despite a week off doing practically nothing.
My ears are still ringing from this evening’s tantrums.
I have a problem with my foot.
I have an ulcer.
I have a problem with my teeth that just doesn’t get better.

I want to be more positive.
I want to be full of energy and life.
I want to be a calmer person.
I want to be more in control.

Just needed to write this all down so I can feel like I have got it all out of my head. Tomorrow is a new day.

When I feel like this writing can really help even though I have been avoiding it and my blog lately. #NaBloPoMo (National Blog Post Month) is a challenge where you write every day for the whole of November. I am in. I will spend 15 minutes a day on writing for me. Hopefully it will help. Plus there have been loads of things I didn’t share with the blog over the past few months so maybe looking back at the good stuff will lift my spirits too.

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8 Comments

  • Reply Xanthe November 1, 2015 at 10:56 pm

    Sorry to hear of so many shitty things happening… It’s good to flip it around and seek out the positive. I can totally relate, it’s not all smooth sailing here, but we’re so lucky to have this creative outlet… so we must use these powers for good. Tomorrow is another day. xxx

    • Reply Kelly November 2, 2015 at 8:21 am

      Here is to using our creative powers for good. It gets lost in day to day life but I need to remember that this is what helps, and that I need to find time to keep us all sane!

  • Reply Kara November 2, 2015 at 6:16 am

    I feel your pain. My hubby had an op on the Monday and our half term was pretty pants as all the kids got sick.
    I actually cried a little last night as it is back to work and school today and 7 weeks till Christmas (which I love but am hating).
    I really hope you enjoy writing from the heart this month. I am on a journey similar. Trying to deal. It is hard but I am trying. Cross fingers for us both xxxx

    • Reply Kelly November 2, 2015 at 8:24 am

      I hope that a return to routine will somehow make things a little better for you. I know what you mean about Christmas, this year I am stepping back, toning it down and just concentrating on making it something that I enjoy as well as everyone else.

  • Reply Ben November 2, 2015 at 1:40 pm

    School holidays are a funny thing aren’t they? In your head their this fabulous time of family fun together without the rush of getting to school each day, but the reality is often that kids struggle with the sudden lack of routine and all that built up tiredness hits. My daughter just finished her first half term and by the end of last week was itching to get back to school again because she was bored not doing something every second. She seemed more tired for not doing things also.

    • Reply Kelly November 3, 2015 at 8:19 pm

      In houses all over the land we are all as tired and crazed as each other xxx

  • Reply Sarah Lou November 4, 2015 at 6:40 am

    I always find the expectation hard – it’s half term so you should be having fun – and as soon as I’m not, I feel really guilty. Hope you’re feeling (physically and mentally) better today x

    • Reply Kelly November 8, 2015 at 6:37 am

      I guess there is even more pressure for you. As we were getting to the summer holidays all my teacher friends were so excited and I was dreading it!

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